Hitting Bottom (I Hope)

Yesterday I lost another 4k playing online. The worst beat came when I had 55 against AK on a KT5 flop. All the money went in on the K turn and the river was another T giving her a pot of more than 3k. Other than that there were a lot of failed bluffs, a few bad calls, and a lot of missed flops.

Jonas arrived soon after and we were soon on our way to the Gambler's Bookshop, but it was closed at 7 PM on a Thursday and we wound up wasting more than 30 bucks on the cabride. Jonas and I then carried four bags of dirty clothes five blocks to the laundromat in 100+ degree weather. I then lost $100 playing blackjack at the Palms. Some of the beats were pretty ridiculous, including one where I had bet four times what I had been betting the whole time, then made the obvious double-down with a 6-4 against the dealer's 5, caught a ten, and then watched the dealer turn over a face card followed by the miracle 6.

Leo reached Vegas after driving from San Francisco and the three of us went over to the Wynn. Jonas played $4-$8 limit while Leo and I managed to get seats at the same table of $1-$2 no limit. Pretty much everyone was playing really tight so I took it upon myself to make up for the others and play every hand. I saw about 75% of flops and won plenty of pots to book a $250 profit which was little consolation to the 12k lost online in 48 hours.

Nick and a few of his friends were driving from Claremont to Boulder and they took a brief pit stop in Vegas. The night ended with Jonas, Leo, and I downing $1.80 Graveyard Specials (a meal not a cocktail) at the Gold Coast, a tradition which will surely be repeated several times over the next few nights.

Today was the 3k NL. I got up to 3800 in no time but then lost a few pots to fall back to 3k. I then got involved in a weird hand with 54 suited in which I lost 2k. Shortly after I had to take a stand with AK and lost to QQ.

Today I find myself in the darkest hole I have been in during the last year as far as poker is concerned. Two months ago I was 100% sure I would be extremely successful as a professional poker player, but today that confidence is wavering.